Keeping ya all in the loop.

So, I have to say, that we haven't really made too much progress since last time I posted. We are still just waiting and waiting for everyone to be finished on their end. A list of things waiting to be completed....

~FBI updated background check: We are supposed to call back in 1 1/2 weeks. FYI, that will but us at 8 weeks!

~Information from our mortgage company stating how much the house is worth and other things I'm sure the court doesn't really need! This info should have been done last week but they "never received the fax".

~Updated physicals for all the kids and also for Charlie and me. I have to admit, this hang up if our fault. We just weren't thinking about blood work and how long it would take to get back. It should be done Friday...we shall see.

~This one is just the best! We need an addendum for our home study. The court wants a fresh hs to make sure there have not been any changes to our financial status and heath. The judge wants NO MORE than 2 pages. We have tried telling our social worker this over and over but she wants to redo our entire thing with a grand total of $650! No matter what we tell her the judge wants word for word even, she won't budge. Well, that is when she is returning our emails that it! Seriously thinking about biting the bullet and finding another agency for our post placements. We would lose the $1500 we already paid but at least I would have peace of mind that the right things are getting done with an honest agency. We just found out yesterday that our hs agency was almost put on the blacklist by the country we are adopting from. Not a good place to be! Especially if this happens when we are still in our process!

No matter what, we are trying to stay positive and we are trying to keep in mind that He is in control over this all. His timing is perfect and there is a reason for all of this!

Officially Exhausted...

I have had it. I can honestly say that I am officially exhausted from this adoption! It has been almost a year. I know, I know, there are so many people that have been at it for well over that amount of time, but I'm still tired. I am physically and emotionally exhausted! Just when I feel like we are maybe getting close to the end...we get pushed back. We are still trying to get together the remaining documents for our dossier. It's not going so well. Why in the world can't 1 thing just go right?!

We are waiting on our fingerprints from the FBI. They called last week saying they tried to run my credit card and it was coming back telling them that it was invalid! Makes no sense, seeing as they had just swiped it and used to charge Charlie's prints! I keep checking my account and my credit card was charged for the prints as well as FedEx...so where in the world are they!!!? We are also waiting on a letter from our mortgage company that was PROMISED would be done in 5 to 7 days or something like that. Why do I keep falling for that? Next, the part that I honestly thought was going to be the easiest of them all, are the physicals. They military keeps changing our FREAKING doctors and every time they do that, the new one wants to meet us. Not to mention that getting an appointment within the year is impossible lately. Between all of us, we have 4 different doctors. SOMEONE JUST SIGN THESE @#$%^^& PHYSICALS ALREADY!!! Let me see, I think that is it.

I feel so defeated thinking of waiting on these fricking people while my baby sits in that institution literally rotting away. Each day he is there, he loses any skills he has and not to mention more and more weight! A 5 year old that weighs 20lbs is killing me. I swore we would have him home by his birthday, but that came and went. Next I vowed he would be home by my birthday, but that day is right around the corner and we still don't even have our court dossier in yet. Day after day passes and I have one anxiety filled dream after another. Last night I had a dream that we got there to pick him up and we had nowhere to stay. All the hotels were closed and nobody would take us in! I really think that I am going to have a heart attack due to anxiety.

Sorry this is so negative, but I need to vent somewhere and this seemed like a good place since I usually get encouraging words from everyone that follows this blog. Thank you for reading and listening. Hopefully next time I post something, it will be positive!

Sorry...

As I have stated many times before in previous posts, I am the world's worst blogger. However, I just wanted to update everyone on our adoption. There has no been any progress and really no news to share. We are waiting on the judge to get back from vacation and that will not be until sometime in September. Ughh! We have had to update our fingerprints for both State Police and FBI. Yay...more expenses for something we have already had done! To our frustration, we got back our fingerprints from the State with mistakes that we had to correct. That alone took 3 weeks. I am hoping that we hear something soon since we submitted them again about 2 weeks ago. I run to the door every time I see a FedEx truck driving on our street.

We are just trying to stay busy so that time passes quickly. I am getting ready to order Dima's new bed since it will take about 6 weeks to get here. At least that is how long it took for Haiden's to get here. They will have matching beds! I am hoping that looking forward to the arrival of his bed and picking out sheets and a comforter will pass some time. Whatever it takes huh?!

Sorry that is about all I have. I just wanted to let everyone know that we are still alive and praying for a travel date soon.

XOXO